Facets & Moving Forward
Eva Blake’s Makery turns 6!
Last year I did a grand birthday-versary giveaway. It was fantastic and so much fun to share goodies with all you lovely people. Someday I’d like to meet everyone in real life and give you huge hug, because you all believed in me, even when I didn’t believe in myself.
Looking back over the past six years I can hardly believe where this little creative business of mine has taken me. I started Eva Blake, well really the persona and concept of her because I needed her. I needed someone in my life who was doing more than I was, who was happier than I was, who was living their best life and encouraging others to do the same. Six years ago I wasn't doing that, but Eva Blake (this fictional woman in my head) was.
Eva Blake’s Makery started out as a crafting event company, bringing people together over cute easy to make, no-sew, decor and gifts. It was so much fun to bring together women who loved to make things. A night out for all of us and a chance to connect over glue guns and watercolor.
On my own time, I was quilting and beginning to design patterns. Then I got it in my head that I should design fabric. Why not, right?! So I did. I taught myself Adobe Illustrator. Turned my piles of illustrations into repeats and colorful stories. I submitted to several manufacturers and was super excited to hear from Moda Fabrics. Talk about a dream opportunity!
Three fabric collections and several years later, I have quilts not only of my own design, but also made up of my own fabric! I also got to work for a dream company. The best part was I became friends with talented and amazing women I had only admired online. (They are even better in real life) I met sewing celebrities and admire the art and process of textile making up close. I’ve also been blessed to work with incredible sponsors and be a feature designer for Olfa, Aurifil, Pellon, The Warm Company and more.
With any industry there are things that just won’t work out forever for everyone. In my case I felt like as much as I tried to be myself in my art, there are trade offs to be made in an effort to please consumers. I acknowledge that it is still a very cottage industry. It’s made up of women from all variety of backgrounds who have made a life making what they love. So much work and heart goes into every part of the process and I’ve loved it.
I said I wanted to be a fabric designer with Moda Fabrics. I created 3 beautiful collections.
I said I wanted to create art that inspired happiness in others. (I’ve gotten the hugs and tearful stories to prove it)
I said I wanted to write a book. I published 4.
I am so very proud of every accomplishment and opportunity these last six years.
At the same time, I’m also looking around wondering how in the world did I get here?
I’m not telling you all of this to be boastful, or arrogant, or selfish. I’m telling you all this because I want you to know that even after you’ve gotten all the things you thought you wanted…it’s ok to pivot. It’s ok to want to create a new facet to your gem.
Everything far been a grand part of my life adventure, and it’s time for a new one.
I enjoy painting, sewing, and creating but I also am tired. Tired of social media. Tired of trying to post all the good things. Tired of trying to sell things that can be disposed. The whole effort behind my art was to make people happy. I think I’ve done that and will continue to do that. Although, perhaps not on fabric. I’ll still make quilts, but to wrap my kids in. I’ll still design patterns, but I might not publish them. I’ll still create, because in all realitiy I CAN NOT STOP.
It’s time to pivot.
Part of that pivot means there won’t be additional fabric lines with Moda in the coming seasons. There might be fabric in other ways, but this season.
It’s time to take what I’ve learned and apply it in a new way, or perhaps an old way.
This last year has changed me and I’ve grown feel re-centered again.
Perhaps you saw my instagram about facets. I want to continue to have facets. Depth and sides to me that continue to reflect light. This will keep me learning and keep me growing and expanding my capacity to love life even more!
I’ve been holding off on writing this post for nearly a year, because frankly, it is SO HARD in a world of beautiful online creative living to show you my dark corners, my imperfections, and my lack of direction. Maybe you didn’t even notice. It’s all in my head after all. I doubt myself, I doubt my direction, I let the voice of fear get too loud. I have anxiety too. I was pumping gas the other day and could hardly breathe my chest was so tight. After getting back in the car this time and others I start singing and praying my way through it.
I just want to everyone to know that its OK! I’m ok and you are too.
It’s perfectly fine to not know a 100% of the time 100% of the things! (although it makes my gut hurt to say it) I still don't have all of my answers yet about what this next facet will entail. I’d like to! I know they will find me when they are ready for me and when I am ready for them. In the meantime, the wait is the worst part.
Sometimes, I get caught up in the end product. Will they like it? Will it sell? How should I price it? How much will it cost me to produce? And on… and on. This hamster wheel I put myself on is guaranteed to shut down any positive and creative vibes in seconds. It brings the whole process to a halt, and then I just stop. It’s too hard.
Then I decide to take a break and create all kinds of rules for my process to force it to work it’s magic. Depending on the kinds of rules they can be helpful or harmful. You can read all about my Rules to Boost Creativity or Road Blocks to Creativity.
So, I keep making. I keep traveling. I keep drawing and dreaming and have faith that it will all come together. It always does. It’s just me who forgets to trust the process and gets all worked up and panicky.
So what does this mean for Eva Blake’s Makery? It will still be here.
There are still beautiful PDF patterns you can download.
There are still incredible calendar free quilt planners waiting for you to Plan to Quilt.
I’ll still be around, creating all the things, because I just can’t help myself and everytime I make something without any idea of who will love it or how I might sell it, it’s better.